• 26 okt 2008

  small thoughts

   

  I watch my dreams 
  slip away 
  I watch what I..m yearning for
  dissapear, again 
  
  Tomorrow its monday 
  Another week starts 
  And we live in a shallow world
  that doesn..t fit me too well 
  I try to be shallow too though. 
  
  THERE..S SOMETHING ELSE, I JUST KNOW IT 
  
  * * *
  
  Where is your heart? 
  And I wonder, would I hurt myself if I fell down into your soul? 
  Is there alot more there than what you show
  Or are you just happily missing depth?
  I wonder

18 okt 2008

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Didnt mean to fall so deep
didnt mean to sleep so long
didnt mean to eat so much
didnt mean to be so wrong
 To be so bad 
to feel so tired
and be so sad
and cry about it 

I promise 
* * *

It was worth it
there will be no regrets 
...but no one's gonna love me; I know

It was the right thing for me 
I need to be on my own, like before I met you
before you made my life all beautiful and pretty 
Before I felt true love

I need to be cold again, cos it fits me well 
Vulnerableness does not 

So I am, on my own
 though I know I'm not happy 
I'm moving on without difficulty, 
but I'm walking around all empty inside
Don't want to believe in a cliché "A life without love, aint no life at all"

You shook my world, of course i was gonna get hurt 
Everybody warned me and I cursed myself 
for kept on doing what we were doing
but all I wanted to do, was to be with you
Cos I..d never felt what I felt for you

The only one I let get close to me
against my will and my mind, but my heart
and my body just didn't care 

You brought sunshine into my world
and you made me love, the real way 
You showed me as much love as I showed you
 I doubt no one will ever do that 
So I must live without it

I wish we had a different start
But you could never change it, I know
And I could never blame you for it
just cry about it - so forgive me cos we were doomed 
It was sooner or later, I had to save myself 

Now I am safe, not as safe as in your arms
but safe anough from damage
safe from you
safe from love 
cold.
And I don't want meaningless touches 
it just turns pale in comparison
Cos I've gotten so emotionally spoiled 

But no one's gonna love me no more

20 apr 2008

stygg flicka.

Aktuellt humör:ångerfull

Varför kunde jag inte vara världens bästa kissekatt? 

Men jag har världens mjukaste händer. 

Ta dom och håll fast dom
och smek dom
eller krossa dom om du vill. Men jag vill ha mina händer i dina. 

Har jag verkligen bytt bort det bästa i mitt liv?

 

11 okt 2008

push

Aktuellt humör:bakfull

Wish I was different 
Wish I didn't have certain ways
So I wouldn't feel the need to push away
what I really want so close 

Because I want, I want, I want
you so fucking close

26 maj 2007

I wish...

Aktuellt humör:orolig

Maybe I miss you 
cos I dream about you every night and I think about you every minute. It´s sick.
This night I was searching for you on an airport... I was running around and looking for you desperately. I didn´t find you, there were so many people everywere. 

I´ve gotten thinner. But my lips they´re fuller. My hair seems longer. It´s been too long... I´m just empty without you. 
* * *

Edit: Earlier today you called. You were so weird, like you are sometimes. And that´s when I start to worry for you. 

I wish you felt for me, what I feel for you. I wish you were monogomous. I wish you could take your time... I wish you would let me into your world, just a little bit. 
I wish I weren´t so separate from the rest. And I wish I didn´t ALWAYS come second.

Once you said to me "I wish I could share my world with you.. I want to." 
and once when I was laying close to you, you said: "Damn... I wish you were mine."
Well I was yours all the time. I´ve been since the day I met you. It´s still just you. There is nobody else. And I gave to you... me. I´ve given you my soul!!

Why couldn´t I be yours? Why didn´t you want me and why don´t you? 
Well thats just how life goes... :P My mind drives me crazy. I wish I was dumb.

24 nov 2008

i just dont know

 

I spread my wings in panic and prepared to fly
away from heartache 
to find a place free from pain and thoughts and feelings

I dont know what happened
Its a big blackout
But i woke up bleeding 

Where do I go? 
Little Miss lost, not found - Where do you go now?
I just dont know

19 jan 2009

kill it (again..)

 

Kill it, fucking kill it
or kill everyone else
I hate her
I hate them... And myself
for almost hating you 

Dont wanna lose my mind
Just make it numb 

I..ve to learn more things, I gotta understand more 
I need to know how to feel and just not feel so insecure 
Wish I would grow older in a day

23 mar 2009

Dagens irritation, ASSHOLES! PATETISKA!

 

* Falska fittor - dööööö

* Ytliga svin - döööööö

* Smyg-peddon som uttnyttjar alldeles för unga tjejer på löpande band ... oh34i=)%Y/de0f#&)(&"#€&&

Ja, alla som finns, skulle kunna hänga er offentligt utan att ha dåligt samvete, bara för jag tycker så jävla illa om er .

Och, oh, en personlig sak: Alla äckel som på allvar tror att jag vill komma springandes å ligga med er  bara för att ni existerar, och råkar vara lite kända; DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ DÖ 
och så hoppas jag att ni återföds som nåt jävla djur ,ni e patetiska hela bunten. Ja, nu buntar jag ihop er, för jag e så jävla lack på den stilen 
Ni e äckliga hela bunten och jag är så glad över att mitt liv inte är i närheten av ert!!!!!!!!